Love Child
One Love
I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Be safe and strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Be safe and strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I remember warning Sephy about it when I had to go to Beirut for the conference I was published in, Sephy held the fort while I was away <3 I dont think I ever really thanked him enough for taking care of my home and my cat in teh face of that bullshit next door; even though he used to push her into a tiny little round basket and make her sleep there, or so I suspect, because she never did it before I went away haha
Big love to Sephy, he closed the thread so I cant say it there, big love to you too and thnks for your well wishes.
I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Be safe and strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks darlin, love you too.
Im not in a relationship, esp with an asshole; it was my neighbor and her psycho bf. Which makes it somewhat worse, because I make good choices in my life and they dont, yet I pay the price of their mania all the fucking time.
I remember warning Sephy about it when I had to go to Beirut for the conference I was published in, Sephy held the fort while I was away <3 I dont think I ever really thanked him enough for taking care of my home and my cat in teh face of that bullshit next door; even though he used to push her into a tiny little round basket and make her sleep there, or so I suspect, because she never did it before I went away haha
The neighbor is a fucktard and psycho, once she ran around the streets with her foot kicked through the TV and was walking on it, the old box sets; she lives in cycles of DV and keeps changing bf's but because she is into violence, all of them are violent and beat her up; so because i am a direct neighbor and a female, they ALL have extended their violence toward me at different stages.
This guy has been going since Jan 2014 and even though I got an AVO on his ass, he kept fucking going. They were losing ther shit this year because analogue tv was turned off and they dont have a digi set HAHAHAHAH they dont even know the world is changing around them, that is how deep in heir own horror that they wade.
The worst is he would stand at my front door and growl at my dog and my dog would go ape shit; and whenever he heard any noise from next door, he would go off, any time he saw them in the street, he would try to bite his balls; i was plannign to bash him and let my dog have his fun, but I dont want my dog in trouble.
Ive told all the doctors and police my dog is my PTSD dog, even though he has no training, he is a natural; and he also has PTSD - so if they can understand why I am losing my shit, they will understand why my dog is losing his and vice versa. So even though the dog nearly attacked the police when they came to take me away, it was good, since now they know why he is this way.
I also told them fucking all - police and doctors that they are ultmately responsible for this shit going on for 10 years becasue they never took appropriate action, I told them that cunt in sydney was pretty much the same situation, violent men abusing women and the police, hospitals, courts doing sweet fuck all.
2 Months ago I told them I was gonna get a weapon from teh police evidence room and shoot up the main street of the city, I said I will not go down without taking you all with me, if you want to do nothing, do nothing - their choice and their power, but they gotta know the consequences. The psych came then, but they said "your not mad, you are stressed" I got the same psych team this time too, so they are sweet.
The Psych's are great as well, they recognize my training and professionalism, I told them I cant clinically practice while also being clinically sick - my career is at a halt because of this shit, they said I have a very thorough understanding and theoretical knowledge - damn straight I do, which is why I write such great fucking emails; but because I write such great complaints and emails and advocate so strongly, they think im taking the piss. They dont think that any more. Now they believe me.
I may try to sue the state/federal government over it, I told the cops and psych I am planning a submission to the Royal Commission into Domestic Violence and I will be detailing all of their failures in the last 10 years. Perhaps that is also why they are working with me so well, because they know what they do with me now, will become the foundation of the work they will be doing into the future after the Royal Commission makes its findings. I am NOT going easy on any of them.
After its all done I will tell the story publicly, I have it well documented for a decade - the best years of my life have been spent living with this shit and trying to sort it out.
Big love to Sephy, he closed the thread so I cant say it there, big love to you too and thnks for your well wishes. Its actually a good thing I snapped, the 10 years of violence is coming to an end. When I am out I can write properly about what happened and what else has happened, but now I dont remember anything and it needs to stay that way, since I am now a 'forensic client'. Hopefully the doctors will try to have any charges dropped, there were no witnesses so it should be ok, in fact I think this is why they chose to keep me, in the effort to save my record and career.
Its not over for the neighbor and I will not be chased out of my home, i would sooner burn hers to the ground with them all inside before I ran from my home. Fuck em
I reckon you will end up with a job in there
The idea of you caged is disturbing, somehow.