CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
I KNOW I start threads like this all the time and I always have a meltdown at this time of year, but just because it hasn't happened before doesn't mean it won't happen this time. I mean the fact that I haven't died yet makes it even more likely that I will die at some pont. And really my chest feels really weird and my hands and my left foot and I'm short of breath all the time and I have the feelings of impending dread and I KNOw I post things like this all the time but one time I WILL be right and you can't deny that. And for other reasons too that I won't go into it just would make sense for me to die now and yes I know life is'nt a story that goes that way but it probably effects me mentally too and increases the likelyhood that my body will just give up on me. and you can't predict when your'e goint to die and I'd really rather not die wihtout posting a "okay I really think I'm going to die" thread first because it would really suck to die wihout having seen it coming and at least this way I can be smug int he afterlife because I knew...except I'm an an atheist and there's literally no chance there's an afterlife (the very word is a contradiction for fucks' sake) so really I shouldn't take this fictional chance to be smug into account but i am.
and maybe it's also in poor taste to post this when millions of people die in the world in horrible circumstances and I should check my priveldge and be grateful and stuff like that but hey it's my one and only life and I've made 134.362 posts here so one more isn't really too self indlugent is it
everything feels unreal and floaty but in a different way from before
look if i don't die you can just say this thread was another joke
but if I die even ten yeras from now you can look at this thread and say "omg Wacky was right he predicted he would die!"
serioulsy my arms hardly work
I'll never tell any of you anything personal ever sorry
that's just the way it is
i am cpatainwacky
thank you ALL for allowing me to be CaptainWacky in the Mine Field the only palce I could be CaptainWacky
Mentalist: thank you GENUINELY for being an actual real frined to me for years and you really did help me out that time you helped me out remember it. I wish you had posted here more in the last four years but you have your life to live so don't feel bad about misisng out on the chance of talking to me one last time even though by writing all that out I've tried to guarantee that you will feel bad lol Graaaaaaaacie grapes the owl who was patrick moore worship the gash chucklevision ephant mon badger and simon an dth ewacky fdkjastgj dgfk fooderfg jgf grapes you kow eggs jimmy buckets i menat everything i posted in the "I miss Mentalsti/Menty" thread okay dude see you later excep tI won't
Tomtrek: you're the only other one who maybe ever understood my brain a little and thanks for talking to me all these years when you could have been talking to actual real cool people and don't put yourself down okay you could do it dude, thanks for being a friend, okay look who the most featured person on FCOTD is yeah it's her yeah
sorry there's like a dleay between my eyes and brain now
I DON'T want ot write individual messages to everyone becuase I'm running out of time (before bed) and also I'd forget SOMEONE and they'd feel bad but I won't because I'll be dead unless i'm not and I'm not using [you] tag because someone bad would see it and think I liked them when I didn't (I mean Aquehonga here) but really I love yhou all and thanks for reading all the things I posted and my head feels like it's closing in?
to the peple who stopped posting but in sevents years then remember the MF and decide to check what's going on: hi CaptainWacky died
so yes ignore this thread if I go back to posting tomorrow but if I don't someone reply "UH OH" serioulsy what's wrong with my body
and maybe it's also in poor taste to post this when millions of people die in the world in horrible circumstances and I should check my priveldge and be grateful and stuff like that but hey it's my one and only life and I've made 134.362 posts here so one more isn't really too self indlugent is it
everything feels unreal and floaty but in a different way from before
look if i don't die you can just say this thread was another joke
but if I die even ten yeras from now you can look at this thread and say "omg Wacky was right he predicted he would die!"
serioulsy my arms hardly work
I'll never tell any of you anything personal ever sorry
that's just the way it is
i am cpatainwacky
thank you ALL for allowing me to be CaptainWacky in the Mine Field the only palce I could be CaptainWacky
Mentalist: thank you GENUINELY for being an actual real frined to me for years and you really did help me out that time you helped me out remember it. I wish you had posted here more in the last four years but you have your life to live so don't feel bad about misisng out on the chance of talking to me one last time even though by writing all that out I've tried to guarantee that you will feel bad lol Graaaaaaaacie grapes the owl who was patrick moore worship the gash chucklevision ephant mon badger and simon an dth ewacky fdkjastgj dgfk fooderfg jgf grapes you kow eggs jimmy buckets i menat everything i posted in the "I miss Mentalsti/Menty" thread okay dude see you later excep tI won't
Tomtrek: you're the only other one who maybe ever understood my brain a little and thanks for talking to me all these years when you could have been talking to actual real cool people and don't put yourself down okay you could do it dude, thanks for being a friend, okay look who the most featured person on FCOTD is yeah it's her yeah
sorry there's like a dleay between my eyes and brain now
I DON'T want ot write individual messages to everyone becuase I'm running out of time (before bed) and also I'd forget SOMEONE and they'd feel bad but I won't because I'll be dead unless i'm not and I'm not using [you] tag because someone bad would see it and think I liked them when I didn't (I mean Aquehonga here) but really I love yhou all and thanks for reading all the things I posted and my head feels like it's closing in?
to the peple who stopped posting but in sevents years then remember the MF and decide to check what's going on: hi CaptainWacky died
so yes ignore this thread if I go back to posting tomorrow but if I don't someone reply "UH OH" serioulsy what's wrong with my body
