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Should I burn out my final four and a half years on DRUGS 'N' SEX?

CaptainWacky

I want to smell dark matter
Should I completely destroy my body by eating, drinking and drug-taking to excess, while partaking in random sexual encounters with males and females all over the world until I DIE aged 30 on the toilet with a smile on my bulbous face!?
 
Already a year has passed since this thread with no drugs (well, only legal ones) and very little sex (okay, none.)
 
There's still time!
 
This is almost what my life is like now.
 
Just make sure your face isn't getting bulbous and that you never sit on the toilet.
 
And never smile.
 
I went through a phase where all I did was take drugs, get drunk, and have random sex.

You wouldn't think that it'd get boring, but it does.
 
I would think it would get boring, actually. I'm sure everything can get boring.
 
I didn't get bored with the drugs, but I did get afraid of them. I think that's part of finally growing up or something. I was afraid I was going to die, even though part of me wants to die. I DON'T KNOW.
 
Like how I have a deeply ingrained fear of death but have felt suicidal!
 
I think I'm more afraid of dying painfully maybe.. I'm not terribly afraid of dying, I just don't want it to hurt or to know about it before it happens. I'M OK WITH BEING HIT BY A TRUCK.
 
Yeah, I do think a lot about the moment of death and the sense of helpness..I'll probably try and fight it until the end, in the belief you only die if you LET YOURSELF die (the false belief, that is.)
 
There are things I want to accomplish before I die, but the death itself doesn't bother me.
 
I hope for a surprise death, and maybe some surprise sex.
 
Anyone that says death doesn't bother them is a lying scumbag.
 
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