CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
INTERLUDE
101 and 102 were bored.
"I wonder where 528 and 529 are," asked 101.
"Who cares, " said 102. "I don't care about anything. Never have."
"I know."
"Just saying. You don't either."
"I care."
"What do you care about?"
"Existence."
"You never do anything."
"I wasn't made to do anything."
"Ha. So why care?"
"Why not."
"Fuck you."
"How many times have we had this exect conversation?"
"Well 528 and 529 weren't missing before, so not exact..."
"It goes on and on. I care, you don't."
"Exactly. I'm so bored."
"We could read this part of the 'I don't like anything archives' that 528 gave us. He seemed to think it was important."
"Who cares about humans? They're all dead."
"Interesting, he gave us entries 101 and 102."
"I don't care."
"I'm going to read them out loud anyway."
"I don't care."
___________________________________
101
___________________________________
so
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this is me tyuping a story
dayugoudg
you see how it'cms coming out
ththklttht
t
it's not just a communcation problem
it's not just lost in translation
it's not all perfect and making snese in my head
i may have said that beoffore but i was lying
or believed it to be true at the time
i can't remember now
it's getting alarming the amoutn of things i can't remember
even from a few years ago
but i degress
it's not just coming out long
WRONG
it's not just coming out wrong
this is how it is in my head
it's cracked
broken
all the way down
peel back the laeyrs and i'm fundamentally wrong all the way
i'm just broken
mhy brain
it's not in me
nothing is
i have nothing to communicate
i'm just nothing
where do thoughts come from you might ask
you know how it is
when a thought just appears in your head
but it doesn't does it
you hear it first
then you repeate it and that's you thinknig it
but if you manage to cpature the moment when you hear it
the part you repeat
that part your hearing isn't the original though
you're not making it
you're just hearing it too
it's all layers of repetition
happening so fast
you can't catch where it's coming from
even the process of capturing it is the samet
it's all motion
determined from the beginning of the universe
but i digress
what im' syaing is
even if i could capture it
the birth of thought
it still wouldn't make sense
it wouldn't be any better
it wouldn'tb e like yours
iit would stillb e cracked
and it's annoying
even though im' getting less and less
wearing myself down
i still think about it
even if i'm just repating thoughts from years before
i'mi still doing it
gain and again
it's a shame
just with a minore adjustment
if that first thought made sense
that initial thought that gets repeated and repeated utnil i'm writing it down
if it wasn't cracked...
i could be somethinb
but as it is
i can't be
i wans't deisgned for the world
i wasn't made to do anything
_________________________________
102
_________________________________
JUST FUCK IT ALL
FUCK FUIFNF FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUXK FUCsdf
FUISADG
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jlbg DSUFsda
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fFUFKC UDFIASFJ
fFUCK FIHFF ITI TITR IASDN FUSDFI STISF SDFIALT asdg
DESOTRY
WHY DO I WANT TO DESORY
I FI DON'T CARE
LOL
FUCKING KILLDF
s
fa
No
just kill msyevf
no
don't do that
do nothing
ever
sleep
yeah
can't even get angry
jyust fucking sleep
I don't care about anything
_________________________________________________
"Huh," said 101.
"Bit short," said 102.
"It's strange how..."
"Yeah. Yeah..."
101 and 102 were bored.
"I wonder where 528 and 529 are," asked 101.
"Who cares, " said 102. "I don't care about anything. Never have."
"I know."
"Just saying. You don't either."
"I care."
"What do you care about?"
"Existence."
"You never do anything."
"I wasn't made to do anything."
"Ha. So why care?"
"Why not."
"Fuck you."
"How many times have we had this exect conversation?"
"Well 528 and 529 weren't missing before, so not exact..."
"It goes on and on. I care, you don't."
"Exactly. I'm so bored."
"We could read this part of the 'I don't like anything archives' that 528 gave us. He seemed to think it was important."
"Who cares about humans? They're all dead."
"Interesting, he gave us entries 101 and 102."
"I don't care."
"I'm going to read them out loud anyway."
"I don't care."
___________________________________
101
___________________________________
so
f
]gnhghjhgh
this is me tyuping a story
dayugoudg
you see how it'cms coming out
ththklttht
t
it's not just a communcation problem
it's not just lost in translation
it's not all perfect and making snese in my head
i may have said that beoffore but i was lying
or believed it to be true at the time
i can't remember now
it's getting alarming the amoutn of things i can't remember
even from a few years ago
but i degress
it's not just coming out long
WRONG
it's not just coming out wrong
this is how it is in my head
it's cracked
broken
all the way down
peel back the laeyrs and i'm fundamentally wrong all the way
i'm just broken
mhy brain
it's not in me
nothing is
i have nothing to communicate
i'm just nothing
where do thoughts come from you might ask
you know how it is
when a thought just appears in your head
but it doesn't does it
you hear it first
then you repeate it and that's you thinknig it
but if you manage to cpature the moment when you hear it
the part you repeat
that part your hearing isn't the original though
you're not making it
you're just hearing it too
it's all layers of repetition
happening so fast
you can't catch where it's coming from
even the process of capturing it is the samet
it's all motion
determined from the beginning of the universe
but i digress
what im' syaing is
even if i could capture it
the birth of thought
it still wouldn't make sense
it wouldn't be any better
it wouldn'tb e like yours
iit would stillb e cracked
and it's annoying
even though im' getting less and less
wearing myself down
i still think about it
even if i'm just repating thoughts from years before
i'mi still doing it
gain and again
it's a shame
just with a minore adjustment
if that first thought made sense
that initial thought that gets repeated and repeated utnil i'm writing it down
if it wasn't cracked...
i could be somethinb
but as it is
i can't be
i wans't deisgned for the world
i wasn't made to do anything
_________________________________
102
_________________________________
JUST FUCK IT ALL
FUCK FUIFNF FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUXK FUCsdf
FUISADG
asdg
jlbg DSUFsda
g
fFUFKC UDFIASFJ
fFUCK FIHFF ITI TITR IASDN FUSDFI STISF SDFIALT asdg
DESOTRY
WHY DO I WANT TO DESORY
I FI DON'T CARE
LOL
FUCKING KILLDF
s
fa
No
just kill msyevf
no
don't do that
do nothing
ever
sleep
yeah
can't even get angry
jyust fucking sleep
I don't care about anything
_________________________________________________
"Huh," said 101.
"Bit short," said 102.
"It's strange how..."
"Yeah. Yeah..."