CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
Charles Horse went to the doctor.
"What can I help you with today?" asked the kindly doctor.
"I uhh...hurt..." started Horse, stumbling over his attempted words.
"You can say anything to me," said the doctor, smiling.
"My body hurts all the time but it's not like exteme crippling pain but it's constant and it hurts and if I sit down it hurts but if I stand up it hurts in different ways and I have to sit down sometime we all do and it's mostly in my lower back but sometimes it moves up my spine or down into my legs and sometimes it's my chest but also sometimes I pee weird and need to shit more but it comes out slowly or too fast and it's never right and I sweat a lot like right now but like there's a lot more stuff too like umm I don't know when people stand behind me I can feel their eyes burning into the back of my head and right through and I can't do whatever I'm doing so STOP STANDING BEHIND ME but also when I'm trying to read and people talk and talk and talk I'M TRYING TO READ and certain words cause my phyiscal pain and no sorry I can't give you any examples because I've gone my whole life without saying those words I hate the feel of them I hate the shape of them so I can't I won't and also I haven't made eye contact with you for this whole thing because that hurts too and my spine hurts again I need to stand up."
He stood up. He finally looked at the doctor. He was still sitting in the same position as before, the same look on his face.
"Doctor?" asked Charles, plucking up the courage to speak again. The doctor said nothing. He was completely still. In fact...he wasn't even breathing.
"...are you okay?" asked Horse, dumbly. The doctor said nothing. Charles reached out to touch him...then pulled back.
"Uhh, thanks for your help," said Horse. He turned and walked out the door without looking back. He walked and walked and walked. It didn't even occur to him to ask for help. He was too scared.
He walked all the way home and went straight to bed and fell fast asleep.
When he woke up he wasn't quite sure if any of it had really happened or if it had all been a dream. He eventually logically determined that it had all been a dream.
But he knew that if it had been real, he would have acted the exact same way. He decided not to see the doctor about the pain he really felt, just in case the nightmare scenario came true.
He'd just sleep until he felt better.
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charlse horse ther
e
what a guy
awhat a guy
what a guy
he's a gu
he's a guy
such a guy
he's a real guy's guy
in that he's seceretly gay
or is he
have I ever defeined a sexuality for charles horse
maybe he doens't really have one
because he doesn't really feel anything
it's all lies and context
he can fake anything
well he used to
when he tghought it mattered
not anymore
mnothing matters to charles horse
he's gone
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MOOSEMAN WALKED INTO A SHOP
"HELLO I'D LIKE TO BUY SOME COKE" HE SAID
"COCA COLA?"
"NO THE DRUG COCAINE YOU CUNT"
"WHAT!"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
MOOSEMAN KICKED EVERYONE IN THE FACE AND EXPLODED
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that never really happened!
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you just have to trick your brain into feeling better I suppose
"What can I help you with today?" asked the kindly doctor.
"I uhh...hurt..." started Horse, stumbling over his attempted words.
"You can say anything to me," said the doctor, smiling.
"My body hurts all the time but it's not like exteme crippling pain but it's constant and it hurts and if I sit down it hurts but if I stand up it hurts in different ways and I have to sit down sometime we all do and it's mostly in my lower back but sometimes it moves up my spine or down into my legs and sometimes it's my chest but also sometimes I pee weird and need to shit more but it comes out slowly or too fast and it's never right and I sweat a lot like right now but like there's a lot more stuff too like umm I don't know when people stand behind me I can feel their eyes burning into the back of my head and right through and I can't do whatever I'm doing so STOP STANDING BEHIND ME but also when I'm trying to read and people talk and talk and talk I'M TRYING TO READ and certain words cause my phyiscal pain and no sorry I can't give you any examples because I've gone my whole life without saying those words I hate the feel of them I hate the shape of them so I can't I won't and also I haven't made eye contact with you for this whole thing because that hurts too and my spine hurts again I need to stand up."
He stood up. He finally looked at the doctor. He was still sitting in the same position as before, the same look on his face.
"Doctor?" asked Charles, plucking up the courage to speak again. The doctor said nothing. He was completely still. In fact...he wasn't even breathing.
"...are you okay?" asked Horse, dumbly. The doctor said nothing. Charles reached out to touch him...then pulled back.
"Uhh, thanks for your help," said Horse. He turned and walked out the door without looking back. He walked and walked and walked. It didn't even occur to him to ask for help. He was too scared.
He walked all the way home and went straight to bed and fell fast asleep.
When he woke up he wasn't quite sure if any of it had really happened or if it had all been a dream. He eventually logically determined that it had all been a dream.
But he knew that if it had been real, he would have acted the exact same way. He decided not to see the doctor about the pain he really felt, just in case the nightmare scenario came true.
He'd just sleep until he felt better.
_______________________
charlse horse ther
e
what a guy
awhat a guy
what a guy
he's a gu
he's a guy
such a guy
he's a real guy's guy
in that he's seceretly gay
or is he
have I ever defeined a sexuality for charles horse
maybe he doens't really have one
because he doesn't really feel anything
it's all lies and context
he can fake anything
well he used to
when he tghought it mattered
not anymore
mnothing matters to charles horse
he's gone
________________________
MOOSEMAN WALKED INTO A SHOP
"HELLO I'D LIKE TO BUY SOME COKE" HE SAID
"COCA COLA?"
"NO THE DRUG COCAINE YOU CUNT"
"WHAT!"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
MOOSEMAN KICKED EVERYONE IN THE FACE AND EXPLODED
______________
that never really happened!
__________________________
you just have to trick your brain into feeling better I suppose