CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
get up get up get gup getn
it's never too late to start being normal!
oh wait it is
it always was
never was any hope
gfjidhf
po9p
DUM DUM DUMN DUMDMDGSd
gh
hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
__________
let's just Charles Horse it
I can be Charles Horse
I think
_______________
I am now Charles Horse
________________
Charles Horse didn't want to go out because it was icy. Like, really icy. He saw other people outside. Old people. Older than dirt. How were they walking on the ice? Didn't they care about falling on their old, brittle bones? Charlse Horse cared about falling. He didn't want to fucking fall. Why would anyone risk falling? Did they all have special shoes for walking on ice? Did everyone have those special shoes other than Charles Horse? Had he not been told? It seemed unlikely though. They looked like normal shoes. Maybe he wouldn't fall if he went out, but he'd be walking really slowly trying hard not to fall. What if someone saw him? He wouldn't be able to turn around and walk away fast like usual because of the ice. He'd be trapped. No, he wasn't going out.
He remembered a time he'd fallen on his way to school. None of his friend had. But he had. Right on his hip. He'd hopped along to school. His friends hadn't even been sympathetic. Of course they hadn't. No one fucking cared about him.
He'd hated being ignored almost as much as he'd hated falling. He remembered some girls laughing at him when he'd been limping. Why? Why laugh at someone in pain. It was cruel. He'd never been cruel...of course, that was a lie.
He remembered kicking a boy randomly one time when he was lying on the ground after another boy had punched him. He remembered writing "DIE CUNT" on a girl's book for no reason. He'd watched as she'd read it. Watched and felt a thrill.
"That's not true."
"I did fall on the ice..."
"You never kicked anyone."
"I thought about it. I said nasty things."
"And you didn't write 'die cunt' either. I'd remember that."
"I should have."
"Maybe."
"I could be an online troll if I wanted to. I can see the appeal."
"But you're too lazy to even be a troll."
"And I'd probably be arrested or something. People get arrested for tweets now. I should be allowed to tweet 'DIE CUNT' to women if I want."
"It's funny how you only abuse women..."
"Hey that boy I thought about kicking was a boy."
"He was gay, wasn't he? The others were bullying him for being gay and you encouraged them."
"They ignored my encouragement anyway. It's not my fault he killed himself."
"He didn't kill himself. Stop trying to make your past more interesting."
"That was like a different person anyway. I remember those things happened, but they weren't me. That me died. I've already died so many times."
"So you won't care when you die the final time."
"There won't be a me to care..."
"Nothing left."
"Why am I thinking all these thoughts when they're just going to be erased?"
"I don't know."
"I should stop thinking forever."
"Yeah."
"Let's try."
"Yeah."
"How long was that without thinking?"
"I don't know, I wasn't thinking about it."
+__________________
CHARLES HORESE THERE
he's still laive
in mye
in me
he's the HORSE THAT ROARS
or something
I'm just saying words
I'm worhtless
if this message board was deleted tomorrow I woudln't exist
and you'd all stop caring after a fewminutes
becasue you're real people
who don't write things like this
becasue of being real
I'm talking to the people int he futrue of cdourse
who hvae discovered thing of the day as the last lsdgalgfda
h
fs
gnfs
gh
asf
jgs
gj
sgsgj
i can't conecnertrate enough to finish a sentecve
never have been abvle to
my legs feels werid
leg
just one
don't know
what does it mater
tMatter
hhehehe
lol
nothing
it's too bad that once you know that there's nothing
you can't ever feel something again
it's not hte same
yyou know it's not rela
the way it used to be
oh wlel
______________________
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what if you were a dog and th rest o the world was cats!
no that's terrible
___________
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asfd
s
g
gh
hfagjjahg
gh
g
___________
not sure why I did that
it's never too late to start being normal!
oh wait it is
it always was
never was any hope
gfjidhf
po9p
DUM DUM DUMN DUMDMDGSd
gh
hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
__________
let's just Charles Horse it
I can be Charles Horse
I think
_______________
I am now Charles Horse
________________
Charles Horse didn't want to go out because it was icy. Like, really icy. He saw other people outside. Old people. Older than dirt. How were they walking on the ice? Didn't they care about falling on their old, brittle bones? Charlse Horse cared about falling. He didn't want to fucking fall. Why would anyone risk falling? Did they all have special shoes for walking on ice? Did everyone have those special shoes other than Charles Horse? Had he not been told? It seemed unlikely though. They looked like normal shoes. Maybe he wouldn't fall if he went out, but he'd be walking really slowly trying hard not to fall. What if someone saw him? He wouldn't be able to turn around and walk away fast like usual because of the ice. He'd be trapped. No, he wasn't going out.
He remembered a time he'd fallen on his way to school. None of his friend had. But he had. Right on his hip. He'd hopped along to school. His friends hadn't even been sympathetic. Of course they hadn't. No one fucking cared about him.
He'd hated being ignored almost as much as he'd hated falling. He remembered some girls laughing at him when he'd been limping. Why? Why laugh at someone in pain. It was cruel. He'd never been cruel...of course, that was a lie.
He remembered kicking a boy randomly one time when he was lying on the ground after another boy had punched him. He remembered writing "DIE CUNT" on a girl's book for no reason. He'd watched as she'd read it. Watched and felt a thrill.
"That's not true."
"I did fall on the ice..."
"You never kicked anyone."
"I thought about it. I said nasty things."
"And you didn't write 'die cunt' either. I'd remember that."
"I should have."
"Maybe."
"I could be an online troll if I wanted to. I can see the appeal."
"But you're too lazy to even be a troll."
"And I'd probably be arrested or something. People get arrested for tweets now. I should be allowed to tweet 'DIE CUNT' to women if I want."
"It's funny how you only abuse women..."
"Hey that boy I thought about kicking was a boy."
"He was gay, wasn't he? The others were bullying him for being gay and you encouraged them."
"They ignored my encouragement anyway. It's not my fault he killed himself."
"He didn't kill himself. Stop trying to make your past more interesting."
"That was like a different person anyway. I remember those things happened, but they weren't me. That me died. I've already died so many times."
"So you won't care when you die the final time."
"There won't be a me to care..."
"Nothing left."
"Why am I thinking all these thoughts when they're just going to be erased?"
"I don't know."
"I should stop thinking forever."
"Yeah."
"Let's try."
"Yeah."
"How long was that without thinking?"
"I don't know, I wasn't thinking about it."
+__________________
CHARLES HORESE THERE
he's still laive
in mye
in me
he's the HORSE THAT ROARS
or something
I'm just saying words
I'm worhtless
if this message board was deleted tomorrow I woudln't exist
and you'd all stop caring after a fewminutes
becasue you're real people
who don't write things like this
becasue of being real
I'm talking to the people int he futrue of cdourse
who hvae discovered thing of the day as the last lsdgalgfda
h
fs
gnfs
gh
asf
jgs
gj
sgsgj
i can't conecnertrate enough to finish a sentecve
never have been abvle to
my legs feels werid
leg
just one
don't know
what does it mater
tMatter
hhehehe
lol
nothing
it's too bad that once you know that there's nothing
you can't ever feel something again
it's not hte same
yyou know it's not rela
the way it used to be
oh wlel
______________________
boomb bomb bobmbombombombombomombombombombomb
b
bfbojojbg
fbg
pjijigb
gp
bjipv
nknfig
s
pslfd
a
fjoo
hitler hitlehriletheilthletheltetlihltehliethliethlietlt
htiletr
ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr9r
atj
what if you were a dog and th rest o the world was cats!
no that's terrible
___________
df
asfd
s
g
gh
hfagjjahg
gh
g
___________
not sure why I did that