THING OF THE DAY (thing+810)

[CaptainWacky]

and doing it. Because who cares? Nobody can hear you. So you just keep talking to yourself, out loud. You say crazy things out loud. You laugh insanely out loud. It makes sense, in context, right? It's you who's doing it, for yourself. Nobody else can hear. If they could you would sound crazy, but they can't, so you aren't. Right? If a tree falls in the woods and all that. Except...if the tree falls in the woods and nobody's there to see it, it STILL falls. So if you are talking crazy to yourself and nobod can hear it...maybe you are still crazy. Maybe that's how craz people start. Nobod thinks they're crazy, do they? From their own point of view, everything they're thinking and doing makes perfect sense. But when I do it, I acknowledge what I'm doing. I say "I'm going mad!" after having an imagined out lout conversation with my dead cat. So I can't be mad then! I've foolproofed it! I'm just amusing myself when I make up stupid words AND SAY THEM FUCKING OUT LOUD THE CHICKEN BRAS THE MCDUCKHEADS BRINGY BURGERS JFK DIED OF AIDS HITLER HITLER I EAT BABIES MMMMM JANKY FETT BRIGGIDY BOOKS KINDLY MEEPS I'VE GOT A LOVELY BUNCH OF COCOBUTSS HAVE A FUCKTANATA BIG MOOPS STANDING IN A CHITTEN SCRABBIDY DOOP FUCK.

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I'm anontc

I'm Nto crazy

what's that pressure at the bakc of my head and neck

is it me doing
gdying

is IT ME DYIGN

is it me dy doing I'm not carzy

need to teype them both

don't need to totype that

THE RUELS ARE CLEARS

I'm not gcarzy back of the had

not that wasn't it

I'm not carzy I need to type them both NO THAT'S NOT

I'm not crazzzzzy is it mee dying

like tha tbut less etters

FEWER

I'm not crazy is it me dying

wait why did I want to type that again

I'm not crazy

is it me dying

yes

maybe Is houdl takke aspirin

if you take aspirin you can't die

it would help blood get to my head and stop it feeling like pressure

or whatever

or just wait until my head implodes and go to the dotor and say "I told you I was ill!!!!"!

except I didn't tell anyone I was ILL

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BRB

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okay I'm back
I took aspirin about 11 minutes ago

do I feel better, yes?

but it proably hnasn't had an deffect yet

so I feel better beause I'm telling myself I feel better


but if I mivoe hmy head a certain way it still hurts

hurts

why do we spend so much of our short lives hurtinG?

because we're just animals who know what we are

I was born too early

I should be a higher form of life

like a million years from now

why am I this


because this is all I can be

I can only be me

I'm not a "spirit" inhabitating a body or some SHIT

I'm a function of my body

my body created me

my physical mind

the circumstances of my life

of course I was born now

I could nevere be anything but me

I AM ME

I became aware

I don't know what it would be like to be anyone else

we're all unique

but it doesn't matter

because we just die

like all those cats and cows and chittens

they probably have some awareness

just not as much

maybe babies do too who fucking knows

i can't remember being a baby
but maybe you just have a differen consciousness then

and the baby consciousness dies when your brain reaches a certain size

so I've already died

maybe

or you're just dying all the time every few seconds when you start a new period of awarenss

nothing is permanent

we just tell ourself a story

so why worry?

because that's who I am

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one day we'll think we've cured death by downloading/uploading (who can remember which is which) our brain patters and memories or some shit, but you can't transfer conscousness so we haven't really cured deaht. ambye we'll make it so brains never die or whateve I don't kow. The universe will still end. Where will we go then? oh mabye we'll fucking evolve to a higher plain but how would that work, really. I do'nt think it would. I don't know. I have no answrs. I'd like to be extra human but it's very unlikely. If the aliens get here within my lifetime there's a chance i guess but if the aliens were ging to get here why aren't they here by now. And why would they want to come I don't kNow .. Aliens who ahve mad eit therie mission to make eveyrone immortal maybe. Nah. Death is all that's coming. And you don't exist when you're death. Like when you sleep without dreaming. It's not so bad but there is nothing. that's the bad part. but youd ont'know wabout it. like how your dead baby consciousness doesn't know you went on to become obsessed with female celebrities. Oh no. It's horrilbe. I'll never get over it. Never. Will fight it until the end. Except it can end without you knowing it. Fuck.

nothing was resolved in this thing of the day