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I've had my bouts with depression over the years, dead dad, dead brother, dead kids, will do that to a guy, but when I was starting to get depressed at work they actually sent me to a therapist, who I have been going to for the last six weeks.
Its only a six week course so its over now, and she did so well helping me come to terms with my grief (basically I came to the conclusion that was probably obvious to everyone else, that I was spending so long thinking about those I had lost that I was neglecting those I still had), that basically I had the last session to talk about other stuff that bothered me, and I mentioned how I had trouble letting go of arguments online.
She said basically the argument wasn't the problem, because from such an early age I had lost a parent, when most kids around me hadn't, there was always a feeling that other people didn't understand how I felt, and it seems that was the course of the never letting the subject drop in an argument, it wasn't about winning, it was always about trying to get other people to understand how I felt.
Which I guess was always an impossible task.
I know not everyone agrees with the idea of therapy, but every time I walked out of that building I felt a little lighter.
Anyway, I can't guarantee I wont say something in the future that is controversial or argumentative, but hopefully I'll never try and prove my point day after day until everyone else is sick of it, because you never know how many days you have left, and there are far better ways to fill your time, and mine.
Thanks for reading.
Its only a six week course so its over now, and she did so well helping me come to terms with my grief (basically I came to the conclusion that was probably obvious to everyone else, that I was spending so long thinking about those I had lost that I was neglecting those I still had), that basically I had the last session to talk about other stuff that bothered me, and I mentioned how I had trouble letting go of arguments online.
She said basically the argument wasn't the problem, because from such an early age I had lost a parent, when most kids around me hadn't, there was always a feeling that other people didn't understand how I felt, and it seems that was the course of the never letting the subject drop in an argument, it wasn't about winning, it was always about trying to get other people to understand how I felt.
Which I guess was always an impossible task.
I know not everyone agrees with the idea of therapy, but every time I walked out of that building I felt a little lighter.
Anyway, I can't guarantee I wont say something in the future that is controversial or argumentative, but hopefully I'll never try and prove my point day after day until everyone else is sick of it, because you never know how many days you have left, and there are far better ways to fill your time, and mine.
Thanks for reading.
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