Consumer
Elder Statesman
...not today, but some day, I will take my own life.
This is not a plea for help, it may be decades off. It may be next week. However, sooner or later, I will tire of this cycle of starburst and cold depths, and I will choose to end it.
I have much to do before then, most notably a responsibility, obligation, and privilege to raise my son. In a way, I hope he understands someday. The world needs good Men, and I will see to it that he is one.
It is not for those who may miss me, I'm competent enough to ask if they do and receive the answers in the form of words, works, or kisses. It is not that. It is that I will want to know the time and the moment. It is that I will say when the world has been too much, when I have broken, or when I have decided that it is not worthy of the pain I pour into it.
No, it will be my last act, literally. Not an accident, not a slow wasting waiting. It will be my hand, and if God is what I think he is, there will be an understanding.
-SB
This is not a plea for help, it may be decades off. It may be next week. However, sooner or later, I will tire of this cycle of starburst and cold depths, and I will choose to end it.
I have much to do before then, most notably a responsibility, obligation, and privilege to raise my son. In a way, I hope he understands someday. The world needs good Men, and I will see to it that he is one.
It is not for those who may miss me, I'm competent enough to ask if they do and receive the answers in the form of words, works, or kisses. It is not that. It is that I will want to know the time and the moment. It is that I will say when the world has been too much, when I have broken, or when I have decided that it is not worthy of the pain I pour into it.
No, it will be my last act, literally. Not an accident, not a slow wasting waiting. It will be my hand, and if God is what I think he is, there will be an understanding.
-SB