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Dual

Dual

RIP Karl 1991-2014
I popped about a dozen Clonazepam and washed them down with wine. I was going to take my Provigil too, but somebody took my bottle at that point. The rest of the night was a haze until I woke up half an hour ago, still fucking alive. Should've downed the bottle immediately. I hate this world.
 
Dual said:
I popped about a dozen Clonazepam and washed them down with wine. I was going to take my Provigil too, but somebody took my bottle at that point. The rest of the night was a haze until I woke up half an hour ago, still fucking alive. Should've downed the bottle immediately. I hate this world.
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Well, I for one am glad you're still alive. I used to be suicidal earlier in my life. I had attempted it more than once. I came to realize that things do get better. I think you will realize that too, with time. You're still young, give life a chance. If you need to talk, you can always PM or call me.
 
Dual said:
I popped about a dozen Clonazepam and washed them down with wine. I was going to take my Provigil too, but somebody took my bottle at that point. The rest of the night was a haze until I woke up half an hour ago, still fucking alive. Should've downed the bottle immediately. I hate this world.
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So if I ever took you up on your roommate offer, I'd have the stress of a dead roomate and nice guy to look forward to? (Me would be sad)

I think I'll pass on that.

Suicide is stupid. I almost killed myself because I got stressed and depressed over getting lost for like 5 hours coming home from a new job orientation last month. Its so not worth it.
 
My friend Stephen. What precipitated it was thus:

I got home from taking my Japanese final and walked into the room with Walker, Sean, and Stephen (visiting from San Francisco) and Sean tells me that they were all talking about me and how I always try to instigate and make things worse while I was gone. That cut me to the bone, so I went to my room, cried for a while, wrote a suicide note, then went back downstairs. They were all watching American Beauty in my living room, and I took a bottle of Riesling (St Michelle vinyards, Columbia Valley. Good stuff) and washed down a dozen 2 mg klonopins until I finished, at which point they joined me. I started making them orange/teriyaki chicken for dinner, and that's the last thing I remember. I don't even know if Stephen was the one who took it, but I'm assuming it was him. Sean told me they flushed the pills.
 
:hmm:

Dude, not cool.

Don't let the opinions of assholes affect you or your life. Especially not your life. They're not worth that much. I'd tell them to go fuck themselves and go shithouse on them. I'm sure they'd leave you alone after that.
 
I want some more clarification: which of those people are your roommates, and which of those people are friends coming over? And which of those roommates and friends are the ones you consider jerks and/or don't respect?
 
If you've got the spare cash to fly cross-country, I've got a second bedroom you can crash in for free. Y'know, to completely remove yourself from things for a while and hang around some positive people. My girlfriend and my roommate are really cool people.
 
Gonad said:
I want some more clarification: which of those people are your roommates, and which of those people are friends coming over? And which of those roommates and friends are the ones you consider jerks and/or don't respect?
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None are my roommates, and I don't consider any of them jerks. They're my small group of real friends. Part of it was because I was afraid of losing them and also stressed out over finals.
 
Dual said:
None are my roommates, and I don't consider any of them jerks. They're my small group of real friends. Part of it was because I was afraid of losing them and also stressed out over finals.
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Well that's good. I remember your other threads about jerks and assholes using you and stealing from you and threatening you, and I wondered if these were the same individuals. That said, your suicide attempt could be considered an example of "instigating and making things worse." My next question is; are they correct?
 
They were half right. I'd been trolling our bipolar friend with mock philosophy which he took entirely too literally, and been attempting to use it to help him learn to recognise and control his swings. The two other guys just saw it as me fucking with him and told him so, which caused a brief swing, but prior I'd been managing to get him to be happy, so I'm not sure I'd have classified my little troll as maleficent.
 
Dual said:
They were half right. I'd been trolling our bipolar friend with mock philosophy which he took entirely too literally, and been attempting to use it to help him learn to recognise and control his swings. The two other guys just saw it as me fucking with him and told him so, which caused a brief swing, but prior I'd been managing to get him to be happy, so I'm not sure I'd have classified my little troll as maleficent.
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Wait a minute, Am I missing something here? This suicide attempt was just a troll?
 
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