Yub
Anachrophobic
What would you have me do? Its not as easy as it seems to integrate my online charm and personality into my real world socially awkward persona. Talking to someone online who is hundreds, maybe thousands of miles away(even if you know what they look like IRL) is easier than RL face to face interaction.
Make up your mind to do a certain thing. Then set forth to accomplish that. You will accomplish it, unless you are physically unable to do so, with a correct mindset. Accepting defeat because money or distance are difficult factors to overcome, well, it isn't smart.
You are currently time rich. Money and distance can be overcome. Use what you have at your disposal to supplement or assist you in your goal.
I'm battling alot of different illnesses, but although it may take time, I will be victorious in that battle, despite how weary I become fighting it or the length of that battle. You may think you are a "loser noob" and calling it straight. That is a self fulfilling prophecy.