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Let's be making sexy business
Hello there. This isn't really an introduction because I've been here sporadically for a couple years or so already.... but I have been glib and impersonal, and you don't really know me. I have another 'home' board that does know me... but my soon to be ex wife is there too, and, ... well... fuck her.
So, I'm going to post more here, I think. I keep having to bite my tongue about saying things over there because of how she might react to it... or because it may look like a poke at her or whatever.
(boring shit about my recent life you may just want to skim coming next: )
We had been best friends for 20 years, but over the last 2 years or so, we just lost each other. Trust and resentment and money and non-forgiveness and drinking and weight problems and laziness and a whole ugly cloud of unhappiness finally overcame the positives of our family life. We have 2 kids aged 10 and 12.... great kids that are dealing with this really well....
So in July she asked me to move out for a while, and has since become more and more consumed by her hate and anger. Meanwhile, I've been trying like the devil to fix what she told me was wrong with me. self help books, therapy, etc.... Clearly, though... as the target has moved from one problem to the next, it becomes clear that she just does NOT want to fix it, and is doing what she can to simply escape with as little drama as she can manage. I finally stopped resisting the reality of that about a month ago, and stopped torturing myself over the dissolution of our family, and my identity as the head of it.
So.... I'm trying to learn how to be alone again, and it's getting a little easier by now. I know I need to get better at it.... I just hate practicing.
So be warned... I might get to know you.
Oh, my name is Jim.
So, I'm going to post more here, I think. I keep having to bite my tongue about saying things over there because of how she might react to it... or because it may look like a poke at her or whatever.
(boring shit about my recent life you may just want to skim coming next: )
We had been best friends for 20 years, but over the last 2 years or so, we just lost each other. Trust and resentment and money and non-forgiveness and drinking and weight problems and laziness and a whole ugly cloud of unhappiness finally overcame the positives of our family life. We have 2 kids aged 10 and 12.... great kids that are dealing with this really well....
So in July she asked me to move out for a while, and has since become more and more consumed by her hate and anger. Meanwhile, I've been trying like the devil to fix what she told me was wrong with me. self help books, therapy, etc.... Clearly, though... as the target has moved from one problem to the next, it becomes clear that she just does NOT want to fix it, and is doing what she can to simply escape with as little drama as she can manage. I finally stopped resisting the reality of that about a month ago, and stopped torturing myself over the dissolution of our family, and my identity as the head of it.
So.... I'm trying to learn how to be alone again, and it's getting a little easier by now. I know I need to get better at it.... I just hate practicing.
So be warned... I might get to know you.
Oh, my name is Jim.
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