Depression Descriptions

[CaptainWacky]

Last night there was nothing going on in my brain and I was looking at the MF and how I had "last reply" in most threads as usual, then I heard an American say "on accident" in something and thought of starting a thread asking why Americans say "on accident" rather than "by accident" even though I have no real evidence this is strictly an American thing.

And it broke me.

Because I realised nobody could possibly care about that thread. Nobody else but me on the entire planet would even think that was worth posting. Literally everyone else would have something better to do, ANYTHING better to do. Nobody could possibly care that some people say "on accident" rather than what I believe to be the correct "by accident." Nobody would give a fucking fuck like nobody has given a fucking fuck about 90% of the stuff I've posted here over the years and this is the only way I can interact with humans and it's never going to get better, only worse, oh so much worse, and my brain feels hollowed out and I'm sure I'm disappearing.

That's what I thought in that moment.

So yeah that was a low point.

 

[Colonel Kira's Left Tit]

I care. Sans Luke Skywalker pic.

It may not matter, but to me you are one of the most valuable people I interact with online. You always have a great take on things and your posts are funny and insightful. Reading your stuff always cheers me up when I'm feeling down. I know this is a rough and terrible time of year for you and I wish I could do something to help you out. Be well, my friend.

 

[Eggs Mayonnaise]

I've always thought that your posts should be turned into a book.

And I've never heard an intelligent person of any nationality say "on accident" in my life, so maybe the person you read/heard speak it was just not that bright. Or Appalachian.

 

[Mirah]

Last night there was nothing going on in my brain and I was looking at the MF and how I had "last reply" in most threads as usual, then I heard an American say "on accident" in something and thought of starting a thread asking why Americans say "on accident" rather than "by accident" even though I have no real evidence this is strictly an American thing.

And it broke me.

Because I realised nobody could possibly care about that thread. Nobody else but me on the entire planet would even think that was worth posting. Literally everyone else would have something better to do, ANYTHING better to do. Nobody could possibly care that some people say "on accident" rather than what I believe to be the correct "by accident." Nobody would give a fucking fuck like nobody has given a fucking fuck about 90% of the stuff I've posted here over the years and this is the only way I can interact with humans and it's never going to get better, only worse, oh so much worse, and my brain feels hollowed out and I'm sure I'm disappearing.

That's what I thought in that moment.

So yeah that was a low point.

Have you seen my crappy posts? Made by 3 different accounts?
You are and will never be mundane.

A radio show I used to listen to would say "Slap in the ass" when I always thought it should be "on the ass" of course and it drove me crazy. By accident, on accident, now I will wonder what I say.

 

[Loktar]

Have you seen my crappy posts? Made by 3 different accounts?
You are and will never be mundane.

A radio show I used to listen to would say "Slap in the ass" when I always thought it should be "on the ass" of course and it drove me crazy. By accident, on accident, now I will wonder what I say.

I say neither. I say accidentally.

 

[CaptainWacky]

My neck hurts too so that was getting my down!

 

[Mirah]

I am still in bed. 11 am I guess it isn't too bad seeing as I was up until almost 3 am.
People are texting and want to talk and I don't have the energy.

 

[CaptainWacky]

11 am is the middle of the night!

 

[Mirah]

I thouht I was over the hump.
Holidays are done
sun is out longer
weather getting a little better (What does that even mean? I love snow and rain)
Got a job
etc etc
and this week I feel like crap
really down
so I called someone and we will have a phone call once a week. I can't do this on my own. My own mind is betraying me and my body isn't happy. Or maybe I've betrayed it.

 

[Mirah]

Sorry
I'm not depressed anymore.
i'm fine.
Everything is FINE!
JUST FINE!

 

[Loktar]

Yeah. I'm finek too. I'm going to bast myself with a finek. Sorry. Ndam dyslexic depression.

 

[CaptainWacky]

I can't change.

 

[CaptainWacky]

Having a pretty bad depressive episode after thinking about people I haven't seen for twenty years, wondering if they would even remember me, realised what a huge chunk of my life twenty years is, being resentful of the fact that I never really had a chance, etc.

 

[Dr Dave]

Hang in there.

I've been depressed because of work.

 

[Dr Dave]

 

[CaptainWacky]

Really want to time travel and do my life over but am worried it would result in the Mine Field no longer existing in the new timeline.

 

[Loktar]

Really want to time travel and do my life over but am world it would result in the Mine Field no longer existing in the new timeline.

The Minefield would exist in the new timeline, it would just not be as awesome without you.

 

[Eggs Mayonnaise]

Really want to time travel and do my life over but am world it would result in the Mine Field no longer existing in the new timeline.

This is why I keep saying your posts could become a book. You could use this premise and write alternate timelines that run parallel with post history.

You could be an author because you already are one.

 

[Dr Dave]

 

[CaptainWacky]