Mirah
I love you
I get paralyzed. I can't make a decision. I avoid confrontation. I don't tell the truth. I bottle everything up inside of me. I reach out to no one. I am al alone. I feel fear. I feel sadness. I feel depressed. I feel unable to do a god dammmed fucking thing. I fear rejection. I fear being alone. (Not really) I fear looking like a fuck up or a failure. I fear Being One! I really really like myself. I feel comfortable with myself. Its other people I can't handle.
I don't know how to get along with people. Some people I know can say anything. I love those people. I want to be one of those people.
The short time I spent in the church sort of fucked with my brain, now I feel guilty for everything I do or want to do. Or feel guilty for not feeling guilty.
I hate life. (not really)
I want a fucking cigarette.
I wish my computer worked.
I should focus on the real problem.
I should look everything in the eye and face it.
I should stop running.
I don't know how to get along with people. Some people I know can say anything. I love those people. I want to be one of those people.
The short time I spent in the church sort of fucked with my brain, now I feel guilty for everything I do or want to do. Or feel guilty for not feeling guilty.
I hate life. (not really)
I want a fucking cigarette.
I wish my computer worked.
I should focus on the real problem.
I should look everything in the eye and face it.
I should stop running.
Mirah
I love you
Sometimes I feel guilty that I don't help my family enough or hang out with them enough. But then sometimes I just want to run the fuck away from them. Fuck them for putting conditions on me, fuck them for giving me guilt, fuck them for not letting me be free and be whoever the hell I want to be. Fuck Them! Why am I trying so hard to please them all the time?
Mirah
I love you
I'm kind of fucked up.
I'm so depressed I don't want to walk downstairs.
I hate this house.
I hate how cold it is.
I fucking hate this place. (not really)
but my fucking sister has me so paralyzed I live in fear lest I break something or
do something wrong or maybe its just not how she likes it.
I have to get out of here.
I have to find my own place.
But then my car broke down, so its like I'm supposed to stay here anyway.
What the fuck?
I dont' know.
Now you know.
I'm so depressed I don't want to walk downstairs.
I hate this house.
I hate how cold it is.
I fucking hate this place. (not really)
but my fucking sister has me so paralyzed I live in fear lest I break something or
do something wrong or maybe its just not how she likes it.
I have to get out of here.
I have to find my own place.
But then my car broke down, so its like I'm supposed to stay here anyway.
What the fuck?
I dont' know.
Now you know.
Dark Pickle
Fucked Off
This post makes me want to kill myself. Just kidding it doesn't; just kidding it does. Just kidding, I’m dead already, just kidding I’m not. Just kidding, I’m immortal, just kidding; just kidding.
I will always love you, just kidding. I never loved you, just kidding I tattooed your name on my forehead just kidding I slept with your sister, just kidding. Just kidding; just kidding.
I’m really a woman; just kidding I’m really the pope. Just kidding, just kidding. I’m only 14 just kidding; I retired last year just kidding. I’m from the future just kidding; I’m a robot. Just kidding, just kidding.
I’m going to post those pics of us fucking just kidding, I deleted them just kidding. There are no pics just kidding. Just kidding just kidding.
LC I’m your father, just kidding I’m really your son just kidding I’m your long lost brother just kidding I’m your imaginary friend.
Just kidding.
Loktar
Pinata Whacker
Yeah I had similar problems when I lived with my brother in Rochester. Its much better living where I am now with a different brother. Similar interests and attitudes toward life. He is more outgoing than I am though.
Mirah
I love you
I sit here and I blame myself, and I feel guilty for everything I do. And everything for her is about money-my other sister knows exactly how it is with her-because she lived with her too.
Loktar
Pinata Whacker
Dark Pickle
Fucked Off
I haven't seen my brother in ten years now. He's been living with and presumably going to marry a women I've never met.
On the rare occasion that we talk on the phone, we get along MUCH BETTER than we ever did growing up.
On the rare occasion that we talk on the phone, we get along MUCH BETTER than we ever did growing up.
Dark Pickle
Fucked Off
I'd say you did SOMETHING today.
Even nothing is something.
Even nothing is something.
Loktar
Pinata Whacker
I seem to isolate myself every weekend nowadays. And i feel so guilty for it. I should get out go for a drive and/or hang out for a few hours with my brother and his college friends.
Dark Pickle
Fucked Off
70% of the world is water, Mandrake. Why, 7/10 of you is water!
The Dork Lord
Whipping Boy
Gimmie some WATER!
I shot a man at the Mexican border!
COOL COOL WATER!
I shot a man at the Mexican border!
COOL COOL WATER!