I dreamt about my lesbian friend.
Then I dreamt about seducing a reverand who liked little girls. I tried to keep him from them by seducing him, but it didn't work. Then I got kicked out of the house and no one would believe me.
I also dreamt I was coming to bed and my best friend/girlfriend/guardian angel was in my bed. I said to her, "There you are, you've been here this whole time, haven't you?" and she said, "Yes" I immediately felt comfort, then I leaned in to hug her and we started to kiss instead. She pulled me on top of her, I felt a penis on my leg and I thought "Well thats a neat trick, that feels quite like a real penis" Then she started forcefully raping me and I screamed out. I knew it was a dream so I did my best to scream in real life. I yelled, "help" and that did nothing. Finally I woke myself up with a "Hey"
You would think I would have enjoyed these dreams but they are pretty fucked up.
I often have the ability to wake myself up in dreams, or provide outs. I will tell myself I am in a dream and create a body of water I can jump into and escape.
I blame my dream on the various pain meds I am on this week and nothing more. Oh and hanging out with lesbians all weekend too.
Dear Mirah,
yes, that dream (the second one) really is fucked up. Obviously, you do not really feel comforted by your current guardian angel, presumably due to the fact that you have to take pain med. I mean, what good is a guardian angel if s/he isn't able to keep shit happening that requires for you to take pain meds in the first place? Oh, and did you know that some pain killers have the side effect of a raised libido? In fact, it's a well-known chemical mechanism exploited by Bayer and Co. for the sole reason that when patients read the information leaflet, they will immediately be drawn to this and disregard any mention of rashes, kidney failure, or spastic convulsions that just might change their mind reg. taking the drug. Works like a charm since 1881.
But where was I? Oh, right, the dreams. Well, the reverend dream is a very common one, nowadays. Stop listen to the devil who wants to tell you that there are less-than-holy priests, preach a lot and donate lots of cash to the Catholic Church on a regular basis. That should do away with that topic. Nobody would believe you, anyway. Amen.
[As for waking yourself up.. As a teenager I've used to be able to steer my line of thoughts right before I fell asleep into a direction I wanted to dream about, and often enough, it worked well. Every so often, though, the dreams became too unpleasant, and I managed to wake myself up simply by saying 'wake up' to myself. Hm, maybe I should try and find out if I can still do that...]
Have a nice day,
~Ilyanna