CaptainWacky
I want to smell dark matter
nothigm important happened today
not to me anyway
and if it doens't happen to me then it hasn't happened
even if it does happen to me sometimes i don't even know its happening to me
i don't know much
i live inside my head
it's safer
most of the time
sometimes I think about things i don't wnat to think about
like how i've wasted 26 years of my one and only life
that hurts
but on the whole i'm better off inside my head
i can't relate
i can't resonate
i can't emphasise
or maybe i can and i just don't want too
i dn't know
i'm not human
i know that
there's no point applying human solutions to non-human problmes
you might look at me being all derpessed and think i just need to "cheer up you monay faced bastard"
but that's not it
no, really, it's not
some people know nothing about mental health
and they really shouldnt comment
at all
i'm not your mate
you don't know me
don't tell me what i need today
because i'm not you
i don't feel the same way you do
my brain doesn't work like yours
so leave me alone
oh, wait
no one is actually hassling me in this way
it's all in my head
how ironica
sometimes I think maybe i sould "just" cheer the fuck up
as if it's possible but i'm not doing it because...i don't know
why wouldnt I do it?
because if i don't act like aeveryone else then that makes me special?
well, no
that's trite
lazy psychology
easy answers
doesn't apply
nothing applies
i'm just wrong
a dud
some are born
to every generation!
was are necessary
for balance
for evolution
rejected genes
i exist to remove my genes from teh genepool
that's what it is
evolution created me, someone who will never have children, so get ride of some genes it no longer needs
my genes
i'm a dumping ground
a deadend
that's all ia m
end of the line
may as welll killlllllllllllllll myself
makes no difference if i die now or when I'm "supposed" to
but no
ii'll keep going
that means i must have hope
right?
or maybe it just means i'm scared of death
maybe it doens't mean nayhting
maybe it's just a bunch of stuff
like everything else
random
no patter
MIND MAKES PATTERSN
pattern machines
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jk fkjlgjk ckasljdh
fgjgfkl w ansgk
s
gnwkg
hshkfs jkfk shit
h
sdjhkl lfkjsg
g
g
gh
h
dhsdhjikfh
tioiighifhjifh88h8fh8fh8hijijbh sj
sdjh88sh8hn
n
fsj8fh8h
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ghjisghi hitlet
ghfn
ji
see a pattern therE?
well, there wans't one
how do yo9u like that
nnot much i'llw arreant!
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hggggggggggg
fsjlg
HAHAHAHg
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aI am patter defyetghgn
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k kfggg
fiddlebrooms
i wish iw as king
not to me anyway
and if it doens't happen to me then it hasn't happened
even if it does happen to me sometimes i don't even know its happening to me
i don't know much
i live inside my head
it's safer
most of the time
sometimes I think about things i don't wnat to think about
like how i've wasted 26 years of my one and only life
that hurts
but on the whole i'm better off inside my head
i can't relate
i can't resonate
i can't emphasise
or maybe i can and i just don't want too
i dn't know
i'm not human
i know that
there's no point applying human solutions to non-human problmes
you might look at me being all derpessed and think i just need to "cheer up you monay faced bastard"
but that's not it
no, really, it's not
some people know nothing about mental health
and they really shouldnt comment
at all
i'm not your mate
you don't know me
don't tell me what i need today
because i'm not you
i don't feel the same way you do
my brain doesn't work like yours
so leave me alone
oh, wait
no one is actually hassling me in this way
it's all in my head
how ironica
sometimes I think maybe i sould "just" cheer the fuck up
as if it's possible but i'm not doing it because...i don't know
why wouldnt I do it?
because if i don't act like aeveryone else then that makes me special?
well, no
that's trite
lazy psychology
easy answers
doesn't apply
nothing applies
i'm just wrong
a dud
some are born
to every generation!
was are necessary
for balance
for evolution
rejected genes
i exist to remove my genes from teh genepool
that's what it is
evolution created me, someone who will never have children, so get ride of some genes it no longer needs
my genes
i'm a dumping ground
a deadend
that's all ia m
end of the line
may as welll killlllllllllllllll myself
makes no difference if i die now or when I'm "supposed" to
but no
ii'll keep going
that means i must have hope
right?
or maybe it just means i'm scared of death
maybe it doens't mean nayhting
maybe it's just a bunch of stuff
like everything else
random
no patter
MIND MAKES PATTERSN
pattern machines
nvcgf
sj
dfjkofdhdhgh
fhs
h
jk fkjlgjk ckasljdh
fgjgfkl w ansgk
s
gnwkg
hshkfs jkfk shit
h
sdjhkl lfkjsg
g
g
gh
h
dhsdhjikfh
tioiighifhjifh88h8fh8fh8hijijbh sj
sdjh88sh8hn
n
fsj8fh8h
ng
ghjisghi hitlet
ghfn
ji
see a pattern therE?
well, there wans't one
how do yo9u like that
nnot much i'llw arreant!
fg
d
hggggggggggg
fsjlg
HAHAHAHg
gf
aI am patter defyetghgn
b
gf
k kfggg
fiddlebrooms
i wish iw as king
