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[CaptainWacky]

all we have are memories

but memories are imperfect!

sometimes I don't even remember the actual event, just what I was thinking about the event beforehand

I'm constantly playing out sceanarios in my mind that never come true

and I remember these plays

but not the real thing

because there's nothing to remember about the real thing

and because I've learned the lies

crack open my head and lies spill out

on the rare occasions that I'd go to a party I'd play the whole thing out before

how much I'd drink

how I'd behave when drunk (as if you can prepare such a thing!)

convesrations

I'd start playing out possible conversations

i'd get carried away

and of course when I got there nobody would actually say the things I'd thought

and I'd be lost

and say the wrong things

and when I say the wrong things, PEOPLE KNOW

i'ts not like when a normal person says something stupid and it's laughed off

because when normal people laugh then all laugh

BUT I'M A FUCKING AUTISTIC MOOMIN

so I don't laugh

I just look awkward

I always look awkward

and people can tell

people don't like awkward people

they have no time for them

and well they not

what

i can't even speak in senteces

can't even type in sentences let alone speak

it won't get better

i have enough emperical evidence now to know it won't get better

dont' tell me it'll get better

i'm not like you

ther'se no learning curve

or if there is it's just me learning that i'm not like you and i never will be so there's no point trying

pretending doesn't work either

i just feel under constant pleasure

some will say that if you pretend to be normal and pretend to feel then one day it'll actually happen for real

but that's a crock of shite

it won't be real

just makes me feel like more of a robot

so why pretend

i won't pretend

i won't

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BET YOU'VE MISSED HTat

MISSED IT LIKE CATS MISSED WILD DOGS EATING THEIR NOSES

do cats and dogs really hate each other or is taht another lie?

I mean lots of animals probably clash

dogs probably clash with...ducks

but you dno't here people saying "fithing like ducks and dogs!" do you

no

it's just al ie

life is built on a foundation of lies

and when you tear down the foundation

THEN YOU'RE IN TROUBLE HALOL

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EMOTIONS

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what's it calleD?
oh yes

I know

emptinees

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never to thinkg

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never to dance

DACNING IS FUCKING STUPId

WHY DO PEOPLE DANCe

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I don't like footballl

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the elves hunted the orcs until there were none left and they felt pity for those black creatures of mordor but that didn't stop them killing them no sir


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cnat'e lie

cna't

won't

memories

will i remember this thread?

or will i remember what I was planning to writE?

things never go according to plan

only in my mind

 

[Cassie]

Thing of the day thing of the day

Wacky I'm reading a book called The Dispossessed that I think you might like.. a little, I know you don't like things. ANYWAY IT'S GOOD IN A WEIRD SAD WAY.

 

[Cassie]

This thing of the day made me think of the book, which is why I mentioned it OK?

 

[CaptainWacky]

Who wrote it?

 

[Cassie]

Ursula K Le Guin. I just finished the book this morning. It's not an exciting book but one of those that make you think. I plan to read every book she's ever written, eventually.

 

[CaptainWacky]

I SHALL INVESTIGATE FURTHER.

 

[Cassie]

Investigate The Left Hand of Darkness while your at it! She also wrote the Earthsea Cycle, which was made into a mini series that kinda had the look of LotR. I haven't read the books yet though.

 

[The Dork Lord]

I've read some of her stuff, and liked it!

 

[CaptainWacky]

Is she hot