I don't think I was ever "confused" really, just conflicted. I knew I liked boys from a very early age, I don't know why, I just did. When you know that already, but the world is set up so that it's expected for boys to like girls, it's easy to stifle yourself and go with the flow for a while. And it's not like it was torture with women, I mean, being naked, hot and moist with another sympathetic, attractive human of any kind can be quite nice. It just wasn't ever the default attraction for me.