I know I've said this before but I'm totally losing my grip on "reality"

[CaptainWacky]

"Reality" being the "reality" I constructed inside my own head which I've found is no more or less valid than any other "reality" and I feel like I'm slipping from "reality" to "reality" every day and no one cares or notices or can help me and I'll always be alone then die lol

 

[Cassie]

WE CARE WACKY!!

 

[CaptainWacky]

for a moment

 

[Dr Dave]

Would you like some pillz?

 

[headvoid]

I used to struggle with this. It is possible to get better.

As a child I had a very real feeling that people were paid to be in my world. Everyone I met was an actor etc. I know it's a common thing but this was very real for me for large periods of time.

It was around this time that all my Action Men ran off on a secret mission and never came back. I was convinced they had come to life and escaped being bashed around by me. I believed this for about a year.

 

[CaptainWacky]

Well did you ever find out what happened to them!?

I can't cope with the fact that I'm A MORTAL HUMAN in a HUMAN BODY even though I've always been that way. I feel like I'm repressing some long forgotten memory where God came to me and said I was the chosen one and not to worry or something. I don't understand how ANYONE CAN COPE WITH BEING A FEEBLE MORTAL HUMAN WHO WILL DIE IN PAIN VERY SOON.

 

[headvoid]

You may not die in pain.

I worried about one of my Action Men that had lost the use of his rubber grip hands. I suspect they left him behind with him shouting "go on without me!"

They could still be on that mission now. (A jeep went missing at the same time)

 

[CaptainWacky]

I think I'd rather die in pain because then at least I'd know it was happening.

 

[headvoid]

You could die with Natalie Portman riding you cowboy.

 

[Cassie]

Reverse cowgirl!

 

[CaptainWacky]

Natalie's the same age as me, I don't want to die until I'm very old...meaning Natalie would be very old too...meaning NO SEX WITH GRAN.

 

[headvoid]

How do you know what 70 year old sex with Natalie is like? She might give great BJ's with no teeth. AGEIST!!!

 

[Cassie]

viagra!

 

[CaptainWacky]

it's just the transient nature of life that's getting to me, it's just like a tv show with "seasons" and in the end it's "cancelled" (early death) or reaches a "natural end" (die of old age WHICH IS STILL BAD.)

 

[Fuddlemiff]

TV can be terrific, so can life.

 

[CaptainWacky]

then it ends

 

[Fuddlemiff]

And what? Better than coming back for numerous reincarnations that can never live up to the original.

 

[CaptainWacky]

Why wouldn't they? If I was reincarnated as SOMEONE GOOD I'd lvoe it.

 

[Fuddlemiff]

No you wouldn't, you'd go on about how it was all going to end soon!

 

[CaptainWacky]

I'd try not to!