Laker_Girl said:So my friend just had her baby (I thought we were "best friends" but clearly we are not) and it seems I will be the last person allowed to meet her son.
I was the first person she told she was pregnant, even before the father. Hell, she came to my house to take the home pregnancy test. I am the only person that knows she and her married boyfriend purposely went on fertility drugs to GET pregnant and this wasn't an accident. I was the only friend there for her when her boyfriend left her, pregnant and alone, to "work things out with his wife." I threw her a beautiful baby shower, mostly on my own dime but gave equal credit to her other friend and mom. I've spent more money on manicures, pedicures, gifts for the baby, gifts for her, dinners, breakfasts, lunches, and movies than I care to even think about and won't even get into all the money she insisted would be a "loan" and has yet to pay back. When it came to who was going to be in the delivery room with her did she ask me? OH GOD NO! She asked her other friend because she is a "more consistant friend", nevermind the fact that I was the one she was heavily leaning on for support, financially and emotionally. I was hurt but I let it go and continued to be as good a friend to her as ever. Fate stepped in and my friend ended up having a C-section so her friend wasn't allowed in to see the birth anyway, just her mother. That was good for me, not that I would have ever wished that, I wouldn't but it was quite a coincidence. Unfortunately the baby was born with some sort of infection and has been in the hospital for a week now, my friend was discharged last Sunday. I stupidly thought I should lay low, give my friend time to rest and lots of space but all that got me was another slap in the face. Her son is coming home today and when I asked if I could come over and maybe meet him Saturday she said to me, "Well, I don't know, there are a lot of people that have to meet him first."
Yep, I'm an idiot. I am trying so hard not to build a wall between myself and people, I'm trying to stay as loving and compassionate as I've always been but this kind of thing is just one more brick.
Thanks for the space to rant.Now feel free to bash me!
I've been stuck in a rut recently, too.
Example: Yesterday, after asking a possible realtor I was thinking about using (via e-mail) for some rather simple (I thought, anyway) info on what percentages everybody will get when I sell my house, her head spun around 360 and began to vomit green puke. Or, the e-mail response seemed like that's what she did. I mean, I know I excel in pissing people off, but come on. I was even nice to her.
Ah, well. She's out $20k, at least. I'm not.
