thing of *EXPLETIVE DELETED* the day! (thing+76)

[CaptainWacky]

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d I had a plan

I mentally construct thing of the day inside the confinse of my head sometimes before I post it

i have to be careful to keep restrained and not go off on A HEY ALLISON MACK HAS AN EXPRESSIVE FACE DONEs'T SEh tangent like I did there see that was just an example because my head can blow up well no not really I'll keept thinking of things and thinking of things until I forget things and then I get angry at myself and shout at myself (in my head) to remember the things and wheil eI'm remembered so hard I forge tthe NEW things too so there's ntohign left, there is nothign as the saying goes, anyway, thiw as half an hour ago AND I'VE FORGOTTON IT ALL HAVEN't IT


TGI sg


SO

there is nothing

there is nothing

there is nothing

there is nothing

there is ntohing

there is notdgh

no

doen't express it

doesn't exrpess the NOTHINGNESS becasue even the wrods "there is nothing" are something

I should just leave a blank post relaly

but I reallyfg

but I won't

because that would be stupid

so I type too much

and that gives the impression that there's stuff going on

but there really isnt

I'm not even thinking about ths

there is nothing

it's just my fingers

but how do I REPRESENT what the nothingness the feeling of alienation and complete speratation from EVERYTHING HUMAN that I've expreienced in some way for all my life actually FEELS lieK?

do I call It a "cloud" or something or a "buzzing"

what good would that do

too abtract only wordss

all wors

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need mind meld

THE ONLY WAY IS WITH A MIND MELD

write mty neural pathways onto yours

then yo'll see
t
hen'you'll be crushed

LOL

I don't want to huty youfsd
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kjhf
right

THERE IS NOTHING

___________-


what did you think life was going to be like when you were young, HMMMM you fuckeR?

did you think?

did you think !?!

or did you just enjoy the moment?

I suppose that's the problem

I didn't enjoy the moment

I didn't really enjoy childhood the way others did

so I was just waiting

for something better to come along

and thinking, imagining

oh lord I should not have done that!

stupid world building

so then I had to face reality

AND IT'S RAW

it's empty

it's just a vision

like a tape recording being played to me

there is nothing

I'm not part of it

squre peg, round hole

that what it si

sdfo


fg

so what did you think:?

were youl ooking FORWARD to allt he stages of your life?

did you like the idea of getting a job having a family getting drunk abusing drugs watched Heroes eating crisps?

DI DYoU?


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gwell I didn't

still dont

but there is nothing else

because life isn't deisnged for people like me

life was designed to suit the majority

and it's not perfect

but it's the best fit you have

but not for me

don't fit at all

squre peg, round hole

there is nothing

_________

THAT'S IT

SQUARE PEG, ROUND HOLE

I'LL JUST KEEP SAYING THAT AND PEOPLE WILL UNDERSTAND

SQURE PEG, ROUND HOLE

I'M THE SQUARE PEG, LIFE IS THE ROUND HOLE

I DON'T FIT IN IT THE ROUND HOLE (LIFE) BECAUSE I'M A SQUARE PEG AND A SQUARE PEG DOENST FIT IN AR OUND WHOLE YOU STUPID PEG ROCKSh





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sorry
lost it there


square peg, round hole

yeah

let's just say that


square peg, round hoel

EVERYTHING

like, music

music you liKE?

for me?

SQUARE PEG ROUND WHOLE

food you like?

SQUARE PEG, ROUND HOEL

LOL

And not the way yoU THINK

I SAY THESE TINGSx

AND YOU THINK YOU CAN IDENTIFY

LIKE WHEN I GO ON ABOUT MY PROBLEMS INTERACTING WITH PEOLE

IT'S NOT JUST PROBLEMS

I CAN'T INTERACT WITH PEOPLE THE WAY YOU CAN

AND DON'T FUCKING SAY EVERYONE HAS SIMILAR PROBLEM

because they don't

they have minor problems

but on the whole they fit

I've seen them

I've sene people talking

and they know how to do it

I DON'T I CAN'T I'M< NOT I DON'T FIT

square hoel round peg or something

okay

only otheer asperger's people would understand

BUT GUESS WHAT?

talking to them doesn't help either

becasue they're too annoying

like everyone

people "like" me are unbearable

so what's the point

ARHGf
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SQUARE PEG ROUND HOLE

see I had a point to finsih this lat bit but I've forget it

I don't exist long enough to make pointes
only in flashes


flashes of me

like tape recarodings

copy of a copy

the more you copy something the more degraded it becoms

same thoughts

same thought processes

again and again and agin
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a
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and talking to people lik eme won't magicaly make me ebtter

and I have no interestes

so there's no common interest


))))))))))0

ther eis nothing saqure peg round hole

I DON't EVEN HAVE INTERESTING TICKS LIKE THE COMEDY AUTISTICS ON TV

just move my fingers around

touching my head

with my finger tips

and tapping things

my elbow

that's it

LOL

YEAH PUT THAT ON TV

people like me aren't interesting enough to hve a story worth telling

becasue people like me are barely people

 

[Cassie]

You are a million times more interesting than any comedy autistic on TV to me, Wacky. YOU KNOW IT.

 

[curiousa2z]

!

 

[CaptainWacky]

AG