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[Love Child]

My Father

I see all that you have done for me
and I appreciate you
I feel everything you have taught me
I have learned through the years
and I am humble
I see that there is still
much more to learn
my Father.
Today
you have taken me down a different road
a different path
a new path
perhaps the same
but more is revealed
I will never have a child
but alas
I shall never say never
perhaps it is true
this will never know
the nature
of child birth
child bearing
it is ok
I say
but deep down
deep down
I feel something
missing
something wrong
I feel sad
I feel
Lord
I feel
I feel
logical.
There are so many children
without fathers
without mothers
so many children
who need love.
I say I could love them,
I would, I could.
I don't need my own.
Selfish thoughts
they are
in my mind
however
Lord
Selfish dreams and desires
when I don't even trust
the plans you have for me.
Greater woman than me
have gone before me
greater woman than me
have lived
and I will know peace
and I will know thankfulness.
Amen