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Zombie Hunter
You know what else, though? I may be being too hard on myself. I think I mentioned upthread, the time I was a young(ish) Marine Lieutenant, in school, and we were all loaded in the back of a 5 ton, waiting for someone to figure out what was supposed to be happening and I was like "The rest of the world thinks of us as the world's greatest fighting force. We know how fucked up WE are. Can you imagine what it's like to be in the Turkish Navy?"
Yes. I make mistakes. Yes, I get things wrong. Sometimes I don't learn from a mistake so I have to make it again and again until I DO learn. But I know a lot. And I get a lot right. And I'm (mostly) true to my ethics and code (if I could pull back the letters I sent yesterday, I would, but maybe I need to just ride them out as an important step in my development). And (so far) I haven't wound up in some of the horror stories I've heard about.
Part of the problem is that I'm of German heritage. And I'm smart. And I've worked in the tech field. When you work with people, the right answer can depend on any number of intangible variables. In tech the variables can be tricky, but they are ALWAYS tangible and there is only 1 right answer (although you can get at it different ways). The best example of this...well, I'll go with a simpler example than the one I was going to use. It isn't as fun, but it is a better example: A tactical UHF Multichannel radio link. You use them for telephone and computer connections. Big Humvee full of electronics with a telescoping 50' fiberglass mast on it with a dish on top. Park one on a hilltop and point it at another parked on another hilltop--we'll say 50 miles away. I forget the exact distances, but that's about right. If all the settings on the equipment are right and the 2 dishes are pointed directly at each other with no obstructions and they are at the same elevation above sea level, you can send voice and data. If they aren't, you can't. It isn't as 1/0 as data to get the shot dialed in--if you're close you can get a partial signal and then you can fine tune it to get it solid, but you can't just use persuasion or willpower to make it happen; you've got to follow the rules.
Yes. I make mistakes. Yes, I get things wrong. Sometimes I don't learn from a mistake so I have to make it again and again until I DO learn. But I know a lot. And I get a lot right. And I'm (mostly) true to my ethics and code (if I could pull back the letters I sent yesterday, I would, but maybe I need to just ride them out as an important step in my development). And (so far) I haven't wound up in some of the horror stories I've heard about.
Part of the problem is that I'm of German heritage. And I'm smart. And I've worked in the tech field. When you work with people, the right answer can depend on any number of intangible variables. In tech the variables can be tricky, but they are ALWAYS tangible and there is only 1 right answer (although you can get at it different ways). The best example of this...well, I'll go with a simpler example than the one I was going to use. It isn't as fun, but it is a better example: A tactical UHF Multichannel radio link. You use them for telephone and computer connections. Big Humvee full of electronics with a telescoping 50' fiberglass mast on it with a dish on top. Park one on a hilltop and point it at another parked on another hilltop--we'll say 50 miles away. I forget the exact distances, but that's about right. If all the settings on the equipment are right and the 2 dishes are pointed directly at each other with no obstructions and they are at the same elevation above sea level, you can send voice and data. If they aren't, you can't. It isn't as 1/0 as data to get the shot dialed in--if you're close you can get a partial signal and then you can fine tune it to get it solid, but you can't just use persuasion or willpower to make it happen; you've got to follow the rules.