Do whatever you need to do, Honeybunch. Come here and rant, be drnkl, be sad, be silly, - it's us and it's safe with us. feel and grieve however yer gonna do it, whatever helps you make sense [or nonsense] of it all. I've certainly made my way here when the effing universe took someone from me. Didnt bring them back, but it was a place to say how i really felt, when in RL I was the calm, consoling strong support for everyone else. ha! if they only knew how i wanted to tear the universe up with my bare hands and stomp on it.....
still cant decide if it's better to have time to say goodbye or if that just prolongs the sadness...anyway, we're here if you need us. <3